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Friday, July 08, 2016


This blog is ten years old today.

I last wrote a birthday post back in 2008. Look it up and mark the contrast with this one.

One doesn’t learn a great many things in life after one is forty three – which is when I started this thing – and has learnt so much already (such diverse, curious and unpleasant stuff, too), yet this experience has taught me a few significant things still. And it has been an enjoyable pastime on the whole.

What a lot can happen in ten years, despite time often seeming to stand still! Of the boys who joined my classes in 2006, one is just about to go off for training as a civil servant, another, an architect engineer, is going to set up shop on his own. Sudhirda has been gone for a whole decade: hard to believe. So are my grandparents. My parents are back home. My little daughter is a college sophomore now. I have twice had surgery. The apartment that I was not even planning to buy then has been lived in for more than three years. ‘Smart-’phones, which were still a bit of a novelty then, are now ubiquitous. There are many more highrises all around, many more cars on the roads. The National Highway that skirts this town is being upgraded, and we’ve nearly got an airport. There is a looming water crisis. Education has absolutely gone to the dogs: people who can’t spell, compose one sensible paragraph or score more than twenty per cent in impromptu quizzes to save their lives routinely get top grades in public examinations. And so on…

One thing that using the internet has taught me over a period of nearly twenty years is that, while it is useful for things like booking tickets and home-delivery shopping and summoning cabs and exchanging business letters and hunting for information and suchlike, it is absolutely no good where establishing and maintaining warm, close, intelligent relationships is concerned. I say this after experimenting strenuously with ‘social networking’ sites for years, and Skype, and writing this blog itself. I don’t know how true this is about other countries, but it’s definitely true about India. Or that at least has been my own experience. So after an entire decade – so many posts (this is the 461st), on such a huge variety of subjects – I have realized that if I keep writing, it will be primarily because I enjoy doing so, and a little for the sake of numerous readers who rarely or never comment (I have published, in ten years, just over 4,500 comments, and trashed maybe another 500 or so which were merely abusive or nonsensical). I could never turn this blog into a forum for informed and thoughtful people, as I had originally hoped to since the days when the Net was just a gleam in some nerd’s eye. But I don’t blame myself.

I was re-reading the entries in the ‘earliest posts’ section. It’s like turning over an old photo album. They sound so recent! I am proud to see that virtually nothing has dated. Also, it feels strange to see the names of some people who were avid comment writers once, and who have dropped completely out of my life. Truly indeed in this age whether you keep in touch or not is entirely a matter of volition. So thank you, Shilpi, Tanmoy, Rajdeep, Nishant, Subhadip, Saikat and the handful of others who have kept in touch throughout. Think about it: what a pitiful number it is, considering the size of my ex-student crowd, and the fact that every year a very large percentage of them vow at the time of leaving never to fall out of touch! How offended they are when I laugh and tell them ‘You don’t know you are talking crap, but I do.’ Tells you something about humankind, doesn’t it?

I may or may not stop writing here at some future date. But I don’t think I’ll ever take the blog off the net. Perhaps someday my daughter will want to cull a few of her most favourite posts and make a book out of it? She can at least boast that her baba kept far more gainfully engaged in his spare time than most people of his generation did.

Speaking of generations, I met Mr. Parameshwaran at the marketplace a few days ago. Sir is past eighty, but he was teaching until recently, and he is still so active and sprightly that I can’t help envying him even while wishing him well. It feels more than weird to think that in seven years I too shall be officially a senior citizen. I hope if I am around at his age I can still be fully alive, mentally even more than physically. And maybe, like old Wang Lung in The Good Earth, I shall find love anew! What else is worth living for? Shoes, makeup, parties? Gabbling about new apps on my mobile?

I named the blog ‘bemused’. Those of you who have been reading it for years, don’t you think, in retrospect, that it was apt?


Shilpi said...

A very Happy 10th Birthday to your blog, Suvro da (a Friday birthday extends through the weekend)!

Along with the 2008 Birthday post, I’d say that you wrote Birthday posts in 2009 (Looking back again) and 2010 (Four years old!) too though. I was wondering whether it felt strange for you to go through the years (in your mind) and your own posts.

I have had a priceless time with your blog through the decade. I don’t know whether I deserve your thank you but I did smile widely and said an out-loud thank you for your thank you. (Going by my track record) I certainly will say thank you for letting me to stay in touch.

As for the title of your blog – I am in two minds. When I saw it the first time – it had made complete sense. And even now, when I think of ‘bemused’ in the sense of absorbed/involved/thoughtful and even in the sense that bemused is sometimes considered to be a misuse (a feeling of wry amusement) or maybe even in the sense of puzzling or musing over the contradictions, pageantry and oddities of life – it makes sense but I am sometimes in two minds about your blog title.

I’ll wish as I’ve been wishing across the decade that you keep writing here for another decade. I am terribly sorry for your losses but I’m grateful that you didn’t entirely stop writing and sharing some/a few of your musings and through the ups and downs during this decade. It’s true that I thought for more than a few seconds that you couldn’t possibly be a senior citizen in another 7 years - but I’ll wish you joy and restful and zestful times and that you find love anew.

Saikat Chakraborty said...

Dear Sir,

Happy Birthday to your blog.

I am touched by your thanks and I am grateful to you for letting me stay in touch. I have tried to be a regular reader only since 2010 (when I had proper internet access) and I am glad that you didn't stop it before and you are still writing on the net. It is my window on a range of topics about which I would have remained ignorant otherwise.

More power to you and let the bemusements (I hope this word is correct!) continue.

With regards,

Tanmoy said...

Dear Suvroda. Congratulations. Best wishes to you and the blog. Regards Tanmoy